Time

I knew that becoming a mom, especially a single mom would be hard.  What I didn't realize, was just how much about myself I was going to learn...the good, the bad, and the UGLY (picture the hyenas from the Lion King saying it)!!!!  We can all admit to an extent that we are all selfish, but I realized when I became a mom just how selfish I am.  When I prayed about becoming a Foster to Adopt mom, I specifically prayed that God would bring me a little girl that I could raise to have a heart like His.  A little girl that I could teach about purity and standing strong in our society, and to love and serve Jesus with all of her heart.  Wouldn't you know it...he gave me not one, but two beautiful daughters!!!  

Well, the Bible does say that he doesn't give us more than we can handle...  :)  LOL!!!  One of the many wonderful things about my job as a high school choir director, is that I get to have summers off with my girls.  I've learned this summer, that even though I'm tired, I can't be lazy.  If I want to be a good mom and raise girls that love others, have a good work ethic, are kind, give to others...are beautiful inside and out, I am going to have to make sacrifices.  It's not all about me anymore.  One of the most precious gifts that I am learning that I can give my girls, is my TIME!!!!  One day last week, I was reminded of this.  I was having a particularly lazy, "it's all about me" day.  I wasn't giving my girls the attention that they needed or deserved.  As a result, my oldest decided that she would get my attention, even if it meant hitting her sister a dozen times and being sent to time out.  By the end of the night I'd had it.  It was probably one of those times when I said, "Really God? Why don't I have a helpmate?"  As I was winding down for the night, I read a blog from a Christian blogger, Courtney Joseph (www.womenlivingwell.org) called, "Motherhood is a Huge Time Zapper."  Needless to say, I was very convicted and had to pour my heart out to Jesus before bed.  My girls deserve nothing less than the best.  I certainly don't want to pass all my dysfunction on to them!!  :)  LOL!  I want them to look back on their childhood and remember that their mother was always there for them.  I want them to remember how much their mother loved and loves them.  I want them to learn as I am learning that the best gift that we can give others is the gift of our TIME!!!!  Don't miss out on this precious time that you have and the precious gifts that God has blessed you with.  The Bible does tell us that our children are a gift from Him (Psalm 127:3-5).  


Ann